题目内容：

I used to have this destructive problem.

I would remember something ____ or stupid I did when I was younger and the memory would hurt. In fact, I don’t know if it was pain in my ____ or just physical pain, ____ it would hurt.

I would be eating dinner or taking a shower and I would feel the memory approaching suddenly. There was no way I could ____ it. All I could do was wait until the memory went away. It took me a long time to recognize I was ____ a type of grief (悲伤) and the way I was dealing with it wasn’t ____. I’d stop and clench (攥紧) my fists until the ____ of the memory passed: half fighting it, half letting it defeat (击败) me. It truly was like a person who ____ roller coasters riding a roller coaster: I would ____ it firmly while on the ride, scream, let it move quickly, and then just wish it would be over.

Then, one day I ____ there had to be something better than letting the ____ disaster of my life hurt me whenever they wanted to. I finally decided to handle the next incident ____. That next time turned out to be a cold winter morning as I ____ across the parking lot from the subway station. I could feel ____, shame and guilty start to hit me. But this time, I didn’t react in an unhealthy way. ____, I stopped walking, closed my eyes, and opened my ____ as if I was about to give someone a hug (拥抱).

I welcomed the memory of a time when I acted stupidly and selfishly and had ____ other people. I remembered all the details and then I ____ what I had done. Though all the things showed the fact that I was not ____, I learned to forgive myself. As a result, I stopped letting the memory ____ me.

1.A. selfish    B. enjoyable    C. strange    D. amazing

2.A. head    B. stomach    C. mind    D. nerve

3.A. and    B. but    C. or    D. so

4.A. forget    B. face    C. afford    D. stop

5.A. experiencing    B. expressing    C. showing    D. observing

6.A. traditional    B. honest    C. practical    D. healthy

7.A. pain    B. time    C. value    D. history

8.A. loves    B. fears    C. chooses    D. avoids

9.A. fix    B. say    C. grasp    D. shake

10.A. proved    B. realized    C. remembered    D. wondered

11.A. narrow    B. past    C. bright    D. straight

12.A. secretly    B. carefully    C. differently    D. equally

13.A. ran    B. drove    C. rode    D. walked

14.A. risk    B. pressure    C. regret    D. doubt

15.A. Instead    B. However    C. Still    D. Besides

16.A. windows    B. doors    C. arms    D. eyes

17.A. puzzled    B. praised    C. encouraged    D. hurt

18.A. witnessed    B. shared    C. recorded    D. accepted

19.A. perfect    B. beautiful    C. unfriendly    D. stupid

20.A. respect    B. help    C. control    D. fool